The past few days have been overwhelming.. I managed to finish my Senior First Aid training in one piece.. This also means that I was able to NOT throw up or try grab the person beside me so that i cld comfort myself. Besides, it wasnt as if i was sitting beside the cute guy... hehe.. I think the other RAs here lack the so-called community spirit that they seem to have among their own halls. I would think that it would be better if they at least tried to make us be as one. I would love that. Makes the relationship with them more meaningful.. Rather than the awkward conversations that we have asking the same questions over n over again.. Deep down, i wished i could really befriended them. But i guess, that might be abit too unnatural.. For them, that is!

The computer committee meeting was quite unnverving.. Cause i really didnt know what to expect from the meeting. I had arrived about 10 min late, with my college head mumbling something that i have no idea what he said.. And the commencement of meeting was quite formal. It seems all the other RAs are busy running ard while im kinda laid back.. KINDA!! But then, all is good..

RA training these two days is kinda tiring.. I didnt know quite what to expect from these trainings. I would have to say i didnt enjoy the first day much.. Well firstly cause the cute guy isnt there.. hahaha.. but seriously.. there was alot of talk.. they trying to get some sense into us.. and WE just wanting to have some fun.. well.. me basically.. besides i doubt any of these aussies can get my jokes.. They are after all, how you say it.. Sombong?!.. haha.. Second day wasnt so bad cause there were these 2 policemen who came to talk about how the police system in Victoria was like.. I was almost at the verge of a breakdown *mentally* when they were talking about the race & religion issues.. The sensitiveness of it that is.. Yes, i wld have to say my experience with red necks in this country is still getting to me.. Esp with interacting with new white Aussies.. Maybe that is why i find myself always too quiet for my own good.. Not being able to express my view is so frustrating.. I just have the tendency to kinda hold back on certain things.. Not quite me.. haiz.. Ppl change i guess..

On a lighter note.. how have you guys been doing?! Any plans for the weekend ahead? i'll prob be reading furiously on my Hitler & Stalin book. and maybe get a fan.. i desperately NEED one!! Life in Melbourne is too damn bloody hot.. Ahhh.. This is one of those moments where i wish im back in SIN.. *sobs*