Right now, Im waiting for subur.. Ive been up the whole night.. And no i wasnt doing my assignment.. AS ALWAYS!! i was up chatting with my flatmates.. We laughed.. Exchanged stories and discussed on alot of nonsencial subjects.. It was a good way of taking a load off.. Ive been cleaning my room and the flat the whole day cause of the dinner party tonight.. Im not really excited actually.. Not so sure why.. Perhaps cause im stressing on my assignment and not focusing on the party.. Hehe.. Besides, everything was so last minute.. 3 of our lights blew.. so tonight the party is gonna be in darkness!! ARGH!! What bad luck!! Is it some kind of sign?! That maybe i shouldnt have a party.. i should be a good girl and NOT celebrate my 21st birthday as planned..

Aahhh.. Turning 21.. That's pretty much of a big step for me.. Ive never really thought of turning 21.. REALLY.. Like literally.. Will there be a difference as i turn a year older?! Looking back on last year, October.. ive had celebrated my 20th with my closest frens @ Pasir Ris Chalet.. shared a birthday cake with the October peeps @4PM!! Found my twin, who has been missing for like 20 years of my life... Well.. actually, pretty much have happened 365 days later.. Like being here in Australia.. Celebrating my first birthday EVER away from parents and friends.. Well i do have friends here but they are nothing like those i love back home.. Makes turning 21 more of a heartache than a celebration.. *sobs*

Whats more.. This is my first Ramadhan away from everyone i know.. Unless you count Munirah as someone ive known for a very long time.. Other than that.. its pretty much me, myself and i.. I do miss the times where my mom will make me drop by Geylang to get some kuih for break fast.. Or the decision on where to buka.. with who.. Going out with frens to buka.. Its pretty much of having the people around you.. Rather than here i sahur alone.. and buka alone.. sometimes though.. I guess i lack the spirit of Ramadhan.. and perhaps even more for Hari Raya as the days pass.. So friends.. for those asking how puasa is here.. Well.. its pretty much of a loner kind of deal.. For me that is.. Except for Fridays when there's Iftars..

So to sum it all.. I miss home.. I miss my family.. I miss my friends.. *sobs* I need a HUG!!

PS: 3 days countdown...