Once again i cant help to think about wats going to be in store for me in the next few months.. My head keeps going round & round in circles.. Everyday i'll go back to think abt the same old things that i constantly am still worrying & stressing abt day in and day out. Haiz.. Today I had my usual Sunday SSP tuition class, where the kids were having their English exams & as always my kid decides to turn up @ the last moment & of course very late indeed. I keep thinking abt what i had done today which was so not me.. and im wondering why the hell did tat happened.. argh!! this so sux.. No idea wat the hell is wrong with me! Before i left the centre, my twin, Wina gave me a hug which i soooo needed. I notice tat Mariam & Nora always seem to know tat there is something wrong with me but they arent even one of my closest gal pals.. They must be an expert @ identifying lost souls, i guess! But as usual I always deny everything yet a part of me will want to just stop time & cry out for help! I hate figuring things out.. It just complicates my life more than ever.. I guess theres nothing to tell you abt the past few days except tat i went Johor yesterday & did grocery shopping.. Other than tat kan.. I took a look at a few luggages; slowly preparing to go to my next phase in life.. Ive also been thinking.. What if ppl, like some of my frens, ask me.. Why are you doing this? Why are you leaving? Well firstly, I would love to have an experience and of course to learn more abt not onli the IT world but also what more is there to life... My ans to the next question is.. Cause theres nothing else holding me back.. Or should i say someone else.. Hmm.. I know the answer to wat im looking for will come to me when the time is ready.. Till then I shall continue searching for that right answers to all my questions & continue stressing over pathetic little things tat may seem so small yet so big to me!! *hugs* GOSH! I really need one of those!! *sobs*