As I close my eyes & look around me,
I see the world becoming grey-er, darker,
Seems like nothing is living,
Nothing is breathing.

I take a step backwards,
To have a wider view of life,
What I see is wasnt what I had dreamed,
What I saw was something that wasnt meant to be.

I stood there, standing, then sitting, standing again,
Thinking, pondering what I had done wrong,
To end up in this path, in this life,
Wondering if its all just another test in life.

Was I not a good person, not a good friend, not a good daughter?
Was I not caring enough, not understanding enough, not open enough?
Was I that ugly, that horrible, that frigtheningly terrible?
That I deserve to end up this path in my life.

Maybe I am! I'm one of those horrible friends that you can ever have,
One of those most horrible person you have ever encounter with,
Most horrible daughter any parents had,
Yes, maybe I am this person.

So maybe I do deserve this punishment,
I do deserve this loneliness.
Perhaps I deserve something even worse,
But wait a minute, I think I already have.

But that's something even darker in my life,
Somewhere deeper in my heart,
The wounds that I once had,
Or perhaps, still have.

Nobody knows my pain,
Nobody sees my pain,
Worst of all, nobody cares,
About me, about my life, about what I'm all about.